this is dedicated to
the girls who try soo hard for the guy, but all of a sudden your crying. and you find yourself trying to figure out why your crying.. and you just cant. You talk yourself out of it, dry your eyes, and tell yourself “you know what im done, no more” 2 days later, your in the SAME damn position as before.
we all tell ourselves “we deserve better”, but really? every guy acts the same… tells you the sweetest things (your hooked), gets what they want or need out of you and wahla your suddenly kicked to the curb looking at his sinister smile.
i cant tell you how many times i have been put in this position by the SAME guy. yeah yeah “why didnt you walk away after the first or second time? or the sixth?” because i just couldnt… i couldnt get the confidence up to do it. and lucky me this guy is my BEST friend. so what do i do now? WALK AWAY YOU SAY? well lets see… think of your best friend… now picture you telling them “im done” and walking out and never speaking to them. Not so easy is it?
So where do i go from here? im seriously stuck.. will i get hurt more if i stay or try to leave? dont get me wrong this guy is awesome and when i talk to him he knows when im upset, my fake smile doesnt put up against him. but i have tried to stop the friendship or whatever we have.. worked for a while till i had no one to talk to.. and listen to me huney my dogs are not good listeners.
is it finally over since i moved to plano and im distancing? or is it an oppertunity to try to strengthen this?
i wanna know what yall have done… and what has worked.
